The Blinding Light | | I am blinded by the light; yet it is dark, and cold, and damp, inside this cramped and dusky space. I am alone with my thoughts, alone with all of my memories.
This light is blinding me. I cannot see a thing. I am afraid, isolated, alone, and I wonder how I came to be in this dark place. The light flickers across my furrowed brow, filters through my soul.
The light is strange and eerie; yet I want to rise to meet its dance. I am here, but feel lost and confused. I remember a loud boom, feeling adrift as each moment of my life swept past.
But I feel warmed by this light, too. Shadowy silhouettes are not unfamiliar, ghostly specters or demons of the dark. I recognize family members who look younger and much happier than I have seen them before.
I am beckoned by the light. I feel like I am drifting away from my earthly home. My mother is calling to me. My sister cries wiping tears from her cheeks, from her eyes. She holds a folded flag in her hands.
I am rising towards the light. I feel no sorrow at leaving this place. I have fallen in a strange and foreign land; yet I am reassured by my final destination as I ascend out of this cold, metal box.
I am rising. Rising past my childhood days. Rising higher towards a new horizon, towards the light where war has ceased, and pain has been released. I have fought the good fight and never turned away from any battle.
I am going to my real home, at last. To a Father's loving embrace, to a Son's welcoming smile where I feel weightless and serene. And, where the blinding light no longer blinds me at all. | Sharon Flynn Copyright 2004 |
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